fine art, illustration, graphic design

work

painting and drawing

Three versions of a figure sit in a bathroom. One sits on the counter, talking on a rotary phone. They are surrounded by an open box with a sex toy inside, a vial of testosterone, and a sharps bin. Behind them is a mirror, where they are reflected using the sex toy. In the background, the figure sits on the toilet with their head in their hands, holding the rotary phone. Light streams in from behind the mirror. A blue and pink painting of a classical-looking structure, with an elevated bathroom inside. A figure stands outside the structure, gazing in. A collage of watercolor paintings, pencil drawings, stickers, and rhinestones. written on the right side of the image is a diary entry, reading: i was thinking about beauty and how to me everything is so beautiful and how i started looking for beauty and wonder and aesthetic and artistry as a standin for the intrinsic happiness that i'm supposed to feel. a lover let me down retroactively so i asked a friend what is was he said about artists and love and he said that our work consumes and infests us and turns us into observers, outsiders to our own lives who see the artistry before and above all else. THESE THOUGHTS RELATE SOMEHOW. i'm writing this on my way home to california which is feeling less and less like home and i think it's because i've come to associate home with freedom and peace which are two things i struggle to get in that house, where i hide my testosterone and shave my armpits. i'm lonely at home. maybe i don't have the freedom not to be or because i came out lonely and now that's just the aura of that house. i think my whole family likes parties because we all came out lonely and confused and now we need a pretense to connect and beauty to hide our chains. A nude figure painted in shades of iridescent pink. The figure is visible from the nose to their thigh, and has long black armpit hair. The image has a black scalloped border. The figure is surrounded by cartoonish silhouettes of penises, as well as the words 'Cheap and Vulgar'. Several flowers are drawn off to the side, vaguely resembling vaginas. A server room painted in perspective, using shades of purple, pink, and blue. The cables are tangled and flowing, resembling hair. At the end of the room, there is a large grey rectangle. A figure painted in light blue and pink. They are curled up in the fetal position and wrapped up in electrical cables, some of which are poking into their skin. Several indeterminate pieces of hardware seem to be mounted to the figure as well. A painting of a teddy bear covered in saran wrap. The bear has a pair of heart shaped sungnlasses on top of its head, and a pearl necklace around it. the necklace is arranged to form the outline of a penis on the floor by the bear. At the tip of the outline is a small white candy heart, reading 'XOXO'. A nude figure rendered in shades of green, with a rainbow halo effect around their whole body. They are floating with one knee raised and their back to the viewer, turning their head to look over their shoulder. They have an eye on their back, with the words 'SIGNAL LOST' above it. The background consists of multicolored swirls and the words 'SUM OF ALL YOUR BITS'. A figure rendered in purple, pink, and blue, with one hand over their chest and another over their crotch. Their chest is covered in foamy water. Surrounding the figure is a collage of drawings, paper elements, and text, the largest of which reads 'YOU HAVE YOUR FATHER'S SMILE AND YOUR MOTHER'S TESTOSTERONE'. A loose black and white ink sketch of the interior of Goldwin Smith Hall. A loose black and white ink sketch of the interior of Goldwin Smith Hall. A painting on cardboard of a figure being kissed on the neck by another person. The figure is staring up, gasping slightly, with lipstick smeared over their mouth, resembling blood. A painting of a face on cardboard. A piece of off-white ribbon is woven through the cardboard in a crisscross pattern, leaving the face's eyes visible. A woman's face at a three-quarter angle, rendered in shades of pink, blue, and green. A closeup of her eyes cropped to a square is in the upper left corner. In the bottom right of the image, a can of diet coke, a heart-shaped wrapped candy, a lollipop, a bar of soap, and two alien looking creatures are rendered in the same colors as the face. A painting of a two faces. The face on the left is a side-profile of a woman with light pink skin and violet hair. She is surrounded by soft, flower-like forms made of tissue paper and cotton, as well as beads. On the right is a woman facing forward. She has grey skin, black hair, and black eyes with no iris. Metal wire protrudes in and out of the canvas on her face. Bits of yarn and tissue paper are tied to the wire. A painting of a figure from the shoulders up. They are rendered in yellow, pink, and blue. Their shoulders are melting into a fluid and flowing upwards. A CD labelled 'my mixtape' covers the right side of their face. They are surrounded by drawings of browser popups and buttons. Two message bubbles in the upper right corner read 'you will live to see manmade horrors beyond your comprehension' and 'you promise?'.